Hey dessert listeners, over the past few months, I have been posting things about the trial, as you know,

and I received a lot of emails. And about a month or so ago, I decided that I would put all those emails

into a folder and that I would react to them all at once instead of piecemeal. And so I thought I

would just read all the emails now and react to it. I've skimmed some of the emails or looked at

the topic sentence and I know that some of the emails are critical of me, which is fine. Some of them

are very pointedly critical and I am already feeling my heart start to race a little bit and my

hands are starting to sweat. I mean, so I have a mild form of obsessive-compulsive personality

disorder and people with OCPD have different triggers and it's a very diverse personality issue.

And for me, apparently a major trigger for me is when people are critical of me and I have no way

of being able to have a back and forth with them. When a client, for example, you know, I specialize

in people with personality disorders and it's commonplace that I will trigger them at some point

accidentally and they will attack me and be very, very angry and very, very hurt towards me.

And I specialize in that kind of thing. I welcome that kind of thing. I consider it to be a good

opportunity for a lot of therapy to happen. They voice their anger and obscenity at me and it gives

me a chance to prove to them that they're worth it that they can talk about whatever they want to

and I'm very authentic and I will apologize and often I did make a mistake and they are right.

But in those situations, I can have a back and forth with them. They can be extremely angry at me,

like just rageful at me, but I don't worry about that because I have faith from experience that

we can see ourselves through that. I don't think I'd be able to convince them of something

necessarily, but I do feel confident that if we talk about it, that we can both feel, I don't know,

heard and understood and that not only can I hear them, but they can hear me. Whereas when people

send emails or they comment and they're having that kind of energy with me, it's like I'm completely

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