Hi my name is Lewis Howes and welcome to the Daily Motivation Show.

So when was the moment then where you were able to look at yourself and realize I have either

conquered this inner rage, beast, whatever you want to call it, and you do have control.

First of all, in 2010, it was the end of our marriage.

We had been married 20 years.

And this whole time, I had had an addiction to pornography and I had never told her and 10 years earlier I had basically cheated on her and at a massage problem but I said I filed I'd never tell anybody I'm

filed I said man I'm taking this to my grave it's not happening but see you got

to understand another thing too is this competition but also this guilt

that I was always carrying

creating. Because of that. Yeah because of that.

Yeah, of course.

Shame.

Shame.

I used to get into arguments.

So she asked me questions. Like like have you ever do you watch porn

or something hey no don't even bring that up what do you talk about you know what no I

I don't know who you think you are and start an argument so she'd be like I'm out just so she wouldn't bring up more

because I knew what I was doing. Right. I knew that I wasn't living right. You know you say

one lie and it turns into two, turns into ten.

It eats you inside of you too.

You're talking about ten years now. I vowed, I've never tell anybody.

And my wife was always like, she would just bring up stuff like what is it what

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