All right, guys, how you doing? Shabbat Shalong to all the evil juice. I was about to sit down,

watch a movie with the family. It's been a long week. Today was the first day of in-person teaching where I wore an n95 mask which almost suffocated me,

but you know virus and you know just gonna sit down have some family time and then I had an overwhelming

sense of existential guilt that I should be apologizing for something because I don't know her name the

the actress from I think Australia Newton let me see what her name is. What is her name? What is her name?

Anyways, I can't remember her name. She just put out a clip where she was

crying and apologizing for not having been a better person because she took, you know,

rolls from women who had darker skin than her and she was sorry and that triggered in me a deep sense of shame for my own skin and any privilege that I might have had and so I put out a poll earlier just a few minutes ago where I asked people

I'd like to self-lage late because I feel guilty.

I gave different options of what I'm guilty about but the one that won is you should

apologize for all of the above and more. Look what I got. I got. So I drafted it. Sorry that's just a nervous laugh. I feel guilty. Don't trust it. And no, don't worry, my wife is not around watching and cracking up just outside my study. This is not happening.

So I drafted here, handwritten list. It's about 25, 26 things. Now I got a lot more to be

guilty about so don't think that this is it. But these are some of the ones

that I know that I've been wrong. So I'm going to read each one and then self-flage. And by the

way for those of you who say oh no he's he's faking it he's hitting the chair

no I actually hit myself I punish myself to rid not only myself of my guilt, but just like another Levinton Jew who, you know, had the things happen to him because of your guilt, I'm doing the same.

Forgive me, no defamatory here.

So here we go. You ready? Look at it. All right, here we go. Ready?

Let me put my glasses here.

One guilt, one self-flagellation.

I apologize for being male.

I apologize for possessing toxic masculinity.

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