Bad news everybody.

everybody.

Since last week I have ordered one extra large size Panera bread charged lemonade

every single day I've gone off the deep end this week. Very much

spiraled into depths that I did not know my psyche could reach and but at the same time not

I could reach and but at the same time have experienced transcendent highs that I once thought were not possible.

I thought were not possible. I think I have an addiction now. Like every morning the second the second the second that Panera Bread opens I order a large charge lemonade which the death toll I think is now sitting at three and I chug it it activates my brain in ways that have not been activated in a very long time.

What I mean by that is this morning after like a quarter of my Panera charged lemonade I wrote I

planned out and wrote a whole movie script like an entire movie script it's there's very few drugs that I've tried, but it's because that I know some of them I would become too powerful if I were to ever experience them. And caffeine is one of them. And I don't fuck with coffee. I don't

like most energy drinks. And here I am. I found my maker, my match. And it is the

strawberry mint, Panera bread. and I am not saying this to do like don't drink this do not drink do not buy this still because look where I am I look like I look like a ball of lint that was like reanimated by like black magic

but that's not the main thing I want to talk about today because this, because this is like a side note.

This is just like the over, this is an overarching story arc of me

descending into, uh, fucking addiction in by way of caffeine and strawberry charge lemonade.

What I want to talk about today is,

while I've been having this like amazing spiritual experience of discovering caffeine in copious amounts

I also have been like actually

Dealing with like demons in a very real way and not like saying like I'm fighting

demons like I need to thug it out and fight my like I am talking legitimate

fucking demons and I am so scared.

Let me explain.

So, when I was like younger, I really kind of delved into black magic. My friends and I, especially like in

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