I'm sorry.

Here's a little bit about why I've been silent.

Over the past few months, I've received a stream of emails and direct messages asking me the same question over and over.

Where the hell have you been?

Updates to the knowledge from my blog have been sparse, if not non-existent.

New podcast episodes, once a twice a week occurrence, have been a rarity.

Even my social media presence has remained relatively tame.

And today, I want to explain what's been happening in my life and why I've been so quiet.

Because to be blunt, my life has been chaotic and challenging

in ways I believed really reserved for works of fiction. It started in October of 2018 when after three

long months of wrestling with a decision, I ended my relationship with a woman whom I'd shared my life

with for more than four years. In an attempt to separate myself

from the situation and get some much needed space and clarity, I moved from the beach in

San Diego to downtown San Diego while simultaneously helping my aging father about an hour north,

driving back and forth several times per week. His health had been deteriorating for months,

and the responsibility fell to me not only to take him to the hospital or medical specialist several times a week, but to pay for the ever-growing

list of medical expenses. A responsibility, I was more than happy to accept. anxiety and overall

permeated my thoughts, but I was starting to learn how to manage my team, how to rebuild my

life after the breakup, caring for myself, and tending to the challenges with my dad.

Then in March, and seemingly out of nowhere, one of my closest friends died in a freak helicopter crash.

For years, I'd seen him as one of my mentors and allies in life, and in the blink of an eye, he was gone.

And the news hit me hard. Reeling from the loss, I set aside a short

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