Hi Frontline listeners. I'm Rainy Aronson, executive producer of Frontline.

We've been sharing the first episodes of our new 10-part series I'm Not a Monster.

Produced with our partners at BBC Sound and BBC Panorama,

I'm not a monster is the story of an American family's journey

from Indiana to the heart of the self-declared ISIS caliphate and back.

This is the last episode we'll be previewing here.

If you're enjoying the story so far,

you can listen to the rest by subscribing,

to I'm not a monster wherever you listen to podcasts. I hope you enjoy episode 3. The Frontline Dispatch is made possible by the Abrams Foundation committed to excellence in journalism and by the Frontline Journalism Fund with major support from John and Joanne Hagler.

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Before we begin, I just want to flag that this episode

contains some descriptions of violence and upsetting moments involving children.

There's also some very strong language.

My story, oh yeah, absolutely. It is very difficult to believe. It is very hard to believe. I'm not a bad person. I'm not a monster.

Hi Lori.

Matthew was the sweetest little boy you'll ever meet.

I miss you.

And then remember that day whenever he took me to the zoo, I miss you.

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