I Lost My Confidence & My Best Friend… My Darkest Days
The Jay Ferruggia Show
Jay Ferruggia
4.9 • 1.6K Ratings
🗓️ 19 September 2023
⏱️ 42 minutes
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Summary
We all go through seasons in life.
Sometimes things are great and you’re constantly winning. Your confidence is sky high. You feel unstoppable. You’re on top of the world.
And other times things aren’t so great. That’s life.
Everyone has their dark times and their struggles. And sometimes you may not even know what they’re dealing with.
Such was the case for me over the last couple years.
I went into a very dark place after losing my best friend. A place I’d never been before. A place I couldn’t get out of.
And it impacted everything in my life, from my income, to my marriage, to my friendships…
Before I knew it, my confidence was gone, and I didn’t even know who I was anymore.
This is that story, told for the first time.
My hope is that if you’re suffering with anything, this episode may be of some help and reassure you that you’re not alone.
We all fall. And we all must rise again.
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Transcript
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| 0:00.0 | Alright, what is up everybody, welcome back to Renegade Radio, I am Jay Frujian, here |
| 0:11.0 | to help you unleash your stronger self and become the most badass, most elite version |
| 0:17.2 | of you so that you can dominate your life and become the inspiration for everyone around |
| 0:22.5 | you. |
| 0:23.5 | Guys, allow me to reintroduce myself, what I mean by that is I lost myself, I lost a lot |
| 0:28.1 | of things over the last three years, I moved to California, moved three thousand miles |
| 0:33.6 | away to reinvent myself to become somebody else. |
| 0:36.4 | I did that, my life in LA in Santa Monica was like fantasy camp, it was like a movie |
| 0:41.6 | for ten and a half years, 2020 happened, COVID hit and just to do a quick recap, what happened |
| 0:49.3 | was we used to live in this beautiful building, penthouse on the beach, a lot of people who |
| 0:53.5 | live in our building never leave, people have been there 20, 30, 40 years and if I told |
| 0:58.4 | you what they're paying for rent on the beach in Santa Monica, because it's a rent control |
| 1:03.1 | building, you would want to jump off the roof of your building because it's insane, what |
| 1:08.6 | I was paying versus what they were paying, so my friends that have been there 30, 40 years |
| 1:12.7 | on the beach in Santa Monica with the view of the sunset that will blow your mind every |
| 1:16.4 | single night, anyway, 2020 happens, we have Bronx and Brooklyn, we have two dogs, we're |
| 1:22.7 | in this building, I don't need to explain to you guys how insane life was, how insane |
| 1:27.5 | the world was, all kinds of craziness, mandates, lockdowns, nonsense, bullshit. |
| 1:33.7 | And so what happened was we decided we got to get out of this building, but we're not leaving |
| 1:39.9 | Santa Monica, Venice area, we're going to stay here, Marina Del Rey, whatever we look |
| 1:43.6 | around for months and months and months, we looked around for up until November and we |
| 1:51.2 | tried, we went in and you know, we have friends down in Orange County, my good friend, |
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