An unidentified woman who listens to the podcast writes in,

Pastor John, I had an abortion.

That is the one and only thing I knew I would never ever do, but I did it.

I can't begin to detail here the grief and damage it has caused me, and I know I deserve

every bit of it.

I feel as though I will always be a low-class Christian because of what I've done.

I was a believer when I committed this sin, and I didn't do it to avoid disruption in

my life, but because I had no confidence that I could offer any quality of life to this

child at the time.

In my twisted mind, I felt I was doing the child better by preventing him or her from having

to suffer in a broken family or a foster home.

I understand that way of thinking is absurd.

I just didn't understand that at the time.

I grew up in a family that was split before I was born, and I feared that my child would

have that kind of life.

I just couldn't handle the thought of this now.

I feel this is something I should always be punished for.

I haven't been back to church in the years since this happened.

I know I don't belong there.

I don't deserve to go.

I know I can be forgiven, but does God even want to forgive me for this?

Does He want me and still have the plans for me that He did before?

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