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Oh gosh. The cloud. Yeah. Like earlier, I was like, Tanner, I think I'm dizzy, but I can't tell.

Because I was like, my brain is like, I think it just stopped working.

I know. I, that it's those first couple of months are like, they're so hard. But then you get

through it and you're like, oh wow, I can, I can see again. Yeah, then that's true. I can actually

function. But it's again, it's again. I don't know. I don't know. I feel like I may just be

on permanent mom brain forever now, but it is so hard, but it's just like so worth it too,

because even though when I'm like, oh my god, all I want to do is just sleep six hours straight

right now. Please, I would just make my life. But then I get to snuggle him and he makes like the

cutest little sound. Then I'm like, oh my god, but I love you so much. And then snuggles are so great.

They're so great. And then today I was, he had finally like taken a nap because he wasn't,

he didn't sleep last night. He wasn't napping today. And he finally took a nap and I was laying on

the couch with my eyes closed. And Emmy was running around and she ran up to me and she's,

she's becoming so sensitive and so aware of feelings. And she must have a sense that I was having

him hard day and she runs up and she's never kissed me on the cheek before and she kissed me on

the cheek on the couch. And she goes, you okay? And I'm like, stop. I'm like, oh my god,

I know it was the cutest thing. So like, that is so sweet. It was the, it was the best. So I'm

like, even though like, it's really hard right now. And there are some struggles. It's stuff like

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