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🗓️ 29 September 2021
⏱️ 74 minutes
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0:00.0 | Hey, deserving listeners. It's just me today. I thought I would respond to your emails about |
0:06.4 | grief and loss and possibly suicide. So this episode might be triggering for some. So |
0:13.8 | please, you know, proceed with caution. Anonymous upper tier patron wrote in and said, |
0:19.9 | I'm dealing with my husband who has terminal cancer. He has left it has left the cancer has left |
0:26.3 | him fatigued, disabled, and super narcissistic. Let me start over. I am dealing with my husband |
0:31.9 | who has terminal cancer. The cancer has left him fatigued, disabled, and super narcissistic. His |
0:38.4 | prognosis is five to ten years-ish left of life. I was actively grieving our life together |
0:45.8 | before the cancer showed up. Part of me is ready to move on. Is this the rebuilding part of my grief? |
0:52.2 | I feel super guilty for having these thoughts of moving on. Yet another part of me can't |
0:57.6 | imagine living like this for possibly ten more years. And it's continually getting worse. |
1:03.2 | How do I grieve when I'm watching the loss unfold like a train wreck in slow motion and of email? |
1:10.8 | Yeah, first off, I'll just say anonymous upper tier patron that this is tough. There's no easy |
1:15.6 | answer. There's just no way to navigate your way through this without a lot of pain, a lot of |
1:21.8 | frustration, perhaps guilt and shame, perhaps relationships reorienting themselves. |
1:28.0 | So yeah, it's there's no way. And particularly given the way our society is about stuff like |
1:34.0 | this and the way people react around you, they might tiptoe around you or they don't bring it up or |
1:43.3 | you know, whatever it is that they're doing. You can feel quite isolated and alone and unsupported. |
1:50.7 | You know, people, if you say, oh, yes, eternal cancer and they're like, how long does he have to |
1:57.3 | live? And you're like, well, maybe ten years. I imagine a lot of people are just like, oh, |
2:02.2 | well, ten years, I mean, that's way off, you know, but to know that you're going to die within five |
2:08.8 | to ten years, I mean, yeah, it's like you said, watching a train wreck in slow motion. |
2:14.5 | So, and this is often the case for people that our deaths do unfold slowly, particularly as we age, |
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