It's not good. I'd really need to figure out how to not do it.

But I played two shows this weekend and I turned to my headphones up so loud that my ears

are ringing so bad. Oh no. And so I don't know how loud I'm talking. You know what I'm

using? Oh okay. Like my ears still clogged and like they're ringing and I, so like my perception

of sound is not good. I wasn't recording when this happened but I said okay, hey Brandon

give me a check and you went.

And that doesn't help me at all with knowing what the only thing to speak. And then you laugh

like that and then you spike me dude. I don't know what to do with you. I don't know.

Yeah I saw on, it looks like Instagram you were like trying to recover, like saying something

like I need to recover or something like are you dead? I'm still trying. I don't feel

alive. Well why are you doing so many shows? Because I got to make money. I get it. I did it to

myself you know when I picked this as an occupation. I know. You know what's funny I remember when

when you were first like batting around the idea of becoming a DJ and you were like learning at

your house. I remember you had like your rig out and you're like I'm learning how to do this.

Oh yeah. And I remember thinking I don't know if she's built for this. This is, this is a life

of late nights and this bitch likes to be in bed by nine. I don't know if this is going to work.

You know I don't think I am cut out for it. Here we are. I'm doing it. I've committed.

This is now my only skill. So this is what we have to do. Yeah. Let me tell you what two in a row.

I don't do that often and I don't think I can do it again. It's hard. Yeah just don't do just

don't book yourself. Yeah but you know money. Yeah money's important. It's hard to say no to money.

Yeah I get I mean I get that I understand. But the two in a row was rough. Here's the other

problem is you know me I don't really drink a lot. Like I don't like to drink. I would prefer to

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