We are your new go-to girls for everything bad.

I'm nervous.

Like usually I take things as a sign and now I'm worried I'm also nervous okay if I have a good day I'm like let's play the lottery then I always lose so but I I'm just happier in a good place otherwise I feel like you and I would just I would have raged thank God I'm just happy you're in a good place. Otherwise, I feel like you and I would just. I would have raged. Thank God I'm in like my most peaceful era right now because I feel like I would have just had like an, we just lost a whole episode because we're so fucking stupid. Again. The fact I have to say again. This is not our first time. Okay. I know we're not blonde, but like we're awfully close.

So today is a very special episode.

I'm really happy to do today's show.

You know, you guys have been with us on this show going on five years.

And over the course of those five years, we've let you in on every little detail of our personal lives. Right? Like we've talked about death, divorce, dating. Miscarriages. Kids. Kidney stones. Whatever it is, we've brought you in, you know. And I think Tracy, the one thing she's tried to keep a little to herself is her private like personal her dating life.

Yeah.

And I understand why she does that, you know.

She's been through a lot in that category, you know?

And it's so weird because I put everything out there.

Yeah.

But like when I put a relationship out there, it's overly critiqued.

So I always try to keep it to myself because people love for it to go wrong and for them to be like, ha ha, another one.

It's her.

She failed.

And I'm like, I like, honestly, I have to say I'm really proud of myself because last year, at some point I had a really bad situation where I was in a very bad

depression and I really didn't think I was going to recover from it and I've never like shut out

the thought of love. I was mad for a while, right? But I never actually let it like fully bring me down.

And then I feel like divine interventions like sets in I feel like

you let us in one time with your relationship and that was with hat yeah and I think um you know

that was you were vulnerable and it was sweet um and it it wasn't that that wasn't real but this this is different. This is just different. I can't explain it. Maybe you can. You know, we've seen you be in love. But, like, I know now that, like, the reason you want to talk about this is because when you're in love, you want to scream it from the rooftops. Like, you don't want. And I've kept it quiet for so long now yeah and you don't you don't yeah that's that's how that's what love

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