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Welcome to the Gospel Coalition Podcast, equipping the next generation of believers,

pastors, and church leaders to shape life and ministry around the gospel.

On today's episode, you'll hear a message from Vanita Rendal Reisner.

On forgiveness, the hardest and most life-changing thing we can do,

this message was originally given at TGC's 2021 Women's Conference.

I hated her. I woke up in the middle of the night with knots in my stomach.

In my mind, it was all Tiffany's fault. She had broken out my marriage.

Dave and I had been married for 18 years. We had two adolescent daughters.

We buried a son together. This was all her fault.

I really couldn't ever think about forgiving her. I was so angry.

I wanted her to hurt the way I had been hurt, and I pictures lots of ways that could happen.

I got a twisted satisfaction about thinking that she would cry herself to sleep every night,

that she would feel betrayed and rejected.

But God had a different plan for me, and he gently put into my mind the idea of forgiveness.

At first, I was angry. I didn't think I should ever have to forgive that.

And I kept talking to God about it, saying, I can't, I won't.

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