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Welcome to Sick Boy, a podcast where we talk about what it's like to be sick.

This week's guest is Paulina.

She was a survivor of the Toronto Van Attack.

Let's talk about it.

All right.

Today we are, we're going down, we are going down one of those roads that are a little bit more intense, I think, than what we often kind of stroll down.

This is, this is, I actually have a little bit of like j like, jitters. Um, and, and I feel a little bit nervous going into the conversation. It sounded like some, uh, nervous laughter there, but, Jared. What are you talking about? I don't know. I'm feeling the same. I just, I'm talking to fill space because I don't know how to handle myself right now.

The reason is because we're going to be talking about a very, like a rather traumatic event. And this was a traumatic event that was felt around the world.

Most certainly felt here in Canada.

Definitely felt very intense here in Toronto, where I'm currently residing right now. And most certainly, even more so for our friend Paulina.

Polina, hi. How are you? First of all. Hi, good morning, everyone.

Good morning. And hopefully everyone's listening to this in the morning.

Paulina, why don't you, let's just like fucking pull the cat right out of the bag and address

the elephant in the room and some other metaphor with an animal that I can't think of.

Yeah, I was like, what's happening right now?

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