In this following session, we discuss sexual assault,

and I want you to know this before you listen.

My partner and I have been together for about four years now,

and he's been the greatest partner I could have been together for about four years now, and he's been the greatest

partner I could have ever asked for.

But our dilemma is sexually, if he's going to try and turn me on, I want drops of water fed to me until I am like desperately grabbing at the

bottle to drink mouthfuls of water. And more importantly, I want that powerful feeling back

that I'd had with past partners. But what our sexual experience has been since we started dating is like,

I'm getting gulping streams of water that he's feeding me,

like he's trying to turn me on, and then that stream of water becomes, you know, so much water that I can't breathe.

And then also with the added pressure to drink the water. His persistence is how we got together

initially. But sexually, it just is not a turn on for me me and I've discussed this with him and his response

has been you know what I want to do what's going to turn you on and we'll do that as long as it takes

but when we try him backing off of me completely or touching me without the pressure of asking me for sex.

We've only been able to do that for about a week or a week and a half before my partner

becomes cold and kind of turns away from me. So then I just, you know, give in to appease him.

And I really truly hate the feeling of giving in out of obligation

rather than because I truly want to.

The longer our relationship progresses or like moves forward,

the more I ask myself, are we just too sexually incompatible?

Or am I just too rigid in my sexual script and what in my mind and what has worked in the past that turned me on,

am I just too, like, adherent to that?

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