Hello and welcome to another episode of Mindfulness Plus.

I'm your host Thomas McConkey. Thank you so much for listening today. I had an experience recently that I would like to share

in service of another mindfulness lesson here at mindfulness plus. It goes something like this.

I had this idea, maybe even inspiration, that there was a topic that I wanted to study really

deeply. So I decided I am going to go back to school at my ripe age of 41 years old. I looked

at programs. I found one I really liked. I applied and proceeded to

hurry up and wait for almost an entire year from that moment that I decided I'm going to do this

thing. In this episode today, I want to talk about and work with unknowing, a topic that is not unfamiliar

to listeners at Mindfulness Plus.

I want to talk about unknowing as a moving target.

Here's what I mean by this.

For the first, oh, I don't know, say nine or ten months, I thought, yeah, I got a good

mindfulness practice going here. There's this big question in my life. I don't know if I'll get into this program, and if I do it, will change my life and my family's life really significantly.

And the prime directive, I'm just going to be clear about where I'm feeling that unease,

where I'm feeling that queasiness, where I'm feeling that anxiety in my body,

I'm going to observe it with great precision, I'm going to have equanimity with it and allow it to be

there, rinse and repeat. So I have done this many a time over the last year, and I noticed a distinct

shift in the unpleasantness of the unknowing. The last month, the last four weeks of my life,

it just, it's like the universe ratcheted it up.

The intensity got more intense and it was like really game on.

And I stayed with the prime directive, more equanimity, more mindfulness, open awareness, yada, yada.

Just a few days ago, I get an email.

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