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Guaranteed Human. Do I love my wife? Unfortunately, yes. I can't erase the more than 11 years of loving her and having a great life together, just like that. But what good does that do me now? Take care, everyone. Your comments, both positive and negative and advice, help me a lot. Thank you sincerely. Thank God. Thank God. We have an update. But we have an update. Thank God.

We have an update. But we have an update. Thank God. We have an update. Okay. I was really, I was really upset because I felt like it

was going to end after that and I was like, see you. Not going to be cool about it. Wow. Okay.

I think we know exactly where we stand with all this right now. Yep. So, update. Very good last 10 days

finally. I bet for you. Yeah, for you. I started seeing a therapist. The reason I wanted to do this was the last

fight when my wife used my younger son to stop me from leaving the house to see Song. In that moment, I felt an incredible

amount of anger. I had written in previous posts that I was crazy when I was younger. I was always

fighting, especially after I started participating in Taekwondo. I trained in Taekwondo for about two

years. I learned how to fight and wasn't scared of anyone. However, after a few years and once I got

into college,

I learned to control myself. I can even say that my wife helped me a lot when I met her,

helping me avoid any kind of problems, I can imagine. But when our last fight happened, I felt like I could destroy the house. For the first time in 10 years, I felt I might do things that no one

should ever do. I'm not ashamed to admit that I realized

I needed help. I've never raised my hand against a woman in my life, but I had a feeling my wife

was truly scared of me that night for the first time than since we met. I would like to say you

should be ashamed of that. Yes. You're like, I'm not ashamed. You should be ashamed. You should feel

ashamed. Yes. You should feel a lot of shame for that. And the other 47 things that we just read that you've been doing the slowly torture your wife. And guilty too. And guilty. But I digress. I don't want that. Opie says. Even after everything she did to me, I don't want that. At the end of the day, even if I just broke things in the house, I have kids. I can't behave like that. Literally, absolutely not even freaking close. Anyway, I talked to a therapist and explained everything. She said she would love to work with me when I told her about my wife's affair and that I didn't break anything, just yelled a few times. She told me that i should be proud of myself that i should be

proud of myself at first i was like what the eff but she explained that she's had many cases

where where bad things happened after a husband discovered his wife's infidelity after hearing that

i actually did feel proud of myself who are you what is the is this therapist? Look, no, the therapist is playing the long game. She knows or whoever they are knows how to talk to this guy. Right. And that's what he needed to hear to stay in therapy. Reel him in. And then eventually it's like, hey, you know how people working together and stuff? This is really what you're doing here. Yeah. Do you realize that?

And he's like that.

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