Hello and welcome to the Shaneh Says podcast. This is episode eight. We are currently in a different place right now. I am in quarantine in Jakarta. I'm currently moving to Bali after this. So I'm absolutely buzzing to be here. It was

always in my plan to live in Bali and I'm just, I just feel so, I just feel like I'm sitting

in a hotel room and I've had and had fresh air and I'm still buzzing. So I'm just really, really

happy to be here. So today we are going to talk about what I learned in therapy.

And the key message I want to get across today to everyone is that therapy is not just when you're

feeling down and you need to feel better. Like you can go there before the wheels fall off and you

can go there to improve yourself. You can go there as a normal, like, you know, good version of yourself,

but you can come out a greater, exceptional version of yourself and you can take on the world

in a totally different light. And that's what I want to get across people, because people think,

like, there's almost much shame for going to therapy, but I don't go to therapy because I'm ill or anything like that like I go to

therapy to improve myself to understand my behaviours to reflect and to improve mostly to improve

first of all just tell you the story about how I actually came about going to therapy because

I always toyed with the idea but like I thought I could never afford it which I know now

is ridiculous because it should come first it should have came first before the nights out before

anything and if you can afford a few gyms you can afford a therapy session and it will give you so

much clarity and so much self-worth to like put you forward to even be

more successful to earn more money. So before you think it's expensive, it's worth every single penny.

So what happened was I was actually booked. So when I came back to Ireland, I was booked for loads

of speeches. I had a tour and you know, you see me every day. You see

me speaking on my story. Like I've always thought that I am confident in public speaking. I did

pantomines in school. I did everything. So like I thought this would be my dream come true. It was my

dream come true. But what little did I know was that I had public speaking anxiety and took panic attacks. We will get into it a little bit more. So I was on, so I was actually on stage and I was taking a panic attack. I didn't, you couldn't see the panic attack, but, you know, I disappeared on stage. I wasn't the person that you see today. And I just kind of spoke and got my

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