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What up y'all, she boy Ben Beasy, the forest gump of hip hop. Some of you know me as the

jeweler to the stars, but really, I'm just a regular dude with a gorilla grind.

All right, who loves McDonald's? Always know this. I am a father and husband before any titles in life.

Welcome to behind the baller podcast. This is episode 50. Can you fucking believe it? We are 50 episodes legit deep now.

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If I told you that, like I was fully okay, you know, my birthday and one of everything, whatever, just, you know, people think in life, my life is good or whatever.

If I told you I was fully okay, I'd be 100% lying. You know, so it's been now four days since the passing of the greatest basketball player of all time.

Kobe Ryan, let me tell you this man. This is going to be about me. All right. Why? Because this is my podcast. All right. And let me also tell you, I'm still fucked up.

All right. I'm in disbelief and I could care less what y'all think about my birthday or why I mentioned it or but you know, whatever. But listen, this was the worst birthday that I've had. I could think of all, you know,

whatever possibly, you know, I've had bad birthdays in there. This was just where I was. Money could have never changed what the fuck I was going through. All right. I haven't had a birthday party or a birthday day. This shitty since Q passed away.

All right. And he passed away four days before my actual birthday, you know, three years ago. This was just fucking sucky. It was fucking sucky. All right. It was just fucked up. I honestly just couldn't shake it off.

My wife knows me very well. You know, she attacks me some pictures of she took a picture of me crying in the corner of the embusters and just was just like, hey, baby, I've never seen you like this before. I haven't seen you like this since Q. And before that, I haven't seen like this, you know.

But I truly believe it was meant to not shake off. You know, it just it just wasn't and shaking it off wasn't that it wasn't easy. It just it just it isn't. I couldn't imagine what the nest is going through.

You know, and I'll get into later about my thoughts on the bond, everything right, which we'll get into it a little bit actually, but you know, like him, I even just being like really devastated by it. It seemed like he was legitimately devastated as were so many NBA players that were close to him.

But like to have to fucking feel the pressure to come up with a fucking, you know, a statement or something. It's just crazy. I can't imagine.

And Vanessa finally made a statement, but listen, my entire city has poured out the most insane amount of love the world has ever seen.

Okay. This is deeper than a celebrity shit. This is this is the most famous athlete to be killed or you know, to die in the 47 years of me living.

No hate, you know, hate to rate rate folks, but this is bigger than the fucking even Muhammad Ali nine. This is just no disrespect to the Ali legacy and either, you know, it was just he was a God.

And I'm not here to argue, but I'm here to tell you straight up the way that the world moves today with social media so different.

And the impact that Kobe had on our world was just crazy. It was totally fucking different than different errors and everything else and just, you know, just he was so impactful.

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