Welcome back. I feel like it's seeing a long lost friend that I haven't seen in forever. And we haven't spent time together. And I didn't even look at the last episode of the podcast. You can totally see my laundry here in the mirror, but we're doing things. And so we're not going to judge ourselves for the fact that there's laundry there. Welcome to my podcast studio.

Okay. Hey, look, if you're new here, welcome to After Hours with Amanda, the podcast that's for everyone and anyone. And the excitement that I feel and the journey that we're going to go on

this year is just one that I am so excited about because we've dedicated 24, not just to this

podcast and spending time together, but to the fact

that we are not going to allow the voices of other people to become our inner voice, because

that's what stopped this podcast. So let's just also, I do have intro music that I'll be

dropping on our next episode. I just have to figure out how to add it,

but I had someone create a little like intro and outro for me.

And she was the kindest human through I met through another human.

And she was so generous with her time.

So I can't wait for you to experience with that.

But grab your cup of something, whatever it is, juice, kombacho, water, coffee, tea, and settle in because let's rip off the band-aid first of the reason that the podcast stopped.

Besides scheduling, it was the fear of the judgment that we found from other people that we knew was there, but we were a little bit unaware of it.

We were a little unaware of it. Like Like you know how you know something's happening,

but when it's not right in front of your face, you can kind of just ignore it.

You can dissociate from it. You don't have to really encounter it, right?

And it wasn't until hearing these things, seeing them for myself, that it really was like a gut punch.

And it was something that I'm grateful for because it reminded me that we, the minute we get

focused on ourselves, okay, which is what happened.

I was focused on how this was making

me, making me feel, which is allowed. You're allowed. Okay, you're allowed to have hurt feelings,

but it stopped me from doing what was always what I feel, my mission and my calling, which is

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