Hello and welcome to the Shneed Sands podcast. I wasn't going to record a podcast

this week because I have gay fever. But I'm just sitting here so I was like I may as well

record a podcast and I had a few things on my mind because I caught this comment from this guy and I just I felt like it needed to be talked

about. So we're going to talk about finding our own individual happiness so that we don't get hurt

when things go wrong in relationships. We're also going to talk a wee bit by affirmations and just

whatever we get into because I haven't really planned this. So, there we go. So I just wanted to

explain what is going on right now. So I'm in Bali and I have dengue fever. If nobody knows what

dengue fever is, it's basically, um, it's also known as

break bone disease because it actually feels like your bones are breaking, and I can vouch for

that because it's so painful. But basically like it's, um, it comes from like animal bites. So I got

bit by a mosquito that gave me dengue fever and it's just a really intense, tense fever.

So I have been cooped up.

Not that I've been kicked up all my fucking year, but anyway, whatever, I'm cooped up because

I have dengue fever and the symptoms are like really, really high fever, especially at night

and just nausea, sickness, brittle, brittle, joints, bones, bruises, just in general, fucking painful.

It's just a virus that attacks your body and it could last for up to two weeks.

So I'm on like day five, right, day four, day five, I can't remember, but I'm hoping I'm getting through it.

The first few days I had such high fever like I was hallucinating and I was so afraid.

I remember being really afraid the first day and like, what the hell is this?

Kind of thought it was COVID, but I just knew it was more than COVID. So I got tested for both and I had dengue fever. And I just wanted to talk about like how I calmed to myself. Because obviously it can be really concerning when you get sick away from home and people get really scared. And I just think, like, one of the best affirmations for me when it comes to stuff like this is the words, I am safe.

When I found out what it was and how to treat it and got literally prepared myself for what was going to happen, then I can say, you know, I'm safe.

I've done my best and I have to like calm down my fight or flight because it's like my body

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