This is it's time to kill yourself.

This is 15 minutes of freedom.

I'm your host Ryan Eidell

and today's episode is it's time to kill yourself.

Now I know just the title itself of this episode is going to elicit response in you. I did that twofold. I did

one because I want you to listen. That's part of how this works. In the marketing

arena I would call that a hook.

I need something to hook you in to make sure you listen to this episode.

Talking about killing yourself is something that brings that up.

But what's more important is the message behind it.

And I want to preface this with on the front side, I don't really want anybody to physically

go out and cause bodily harm to yourself or to others. So if you're hoping for some

sort of potential suicide instructional lesson here you're going to miss out you probably just want to turn it off right

now that's the opposite of what this is.

My entire life up until two months ago, I had created stories for myself, much like many of

you. Stories of I'm not good enough.

The story of I'm not good enough, admittedly was deep-rooted from my relationship with my father.

See, my only remembrance of my father, other than us getting along at a very young age,

or us not getting along.

I remember him working incessantly not being around.

When he did come around, he would drink.

He would be an asshole.

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