Full Timestamp Notes (Approximate, Based on Transcript Flow)
00:00 – 01:15 Oro Recovery sponsor read (Bob Forrest’s compassionate rehab pitch).
01:15 – 02:45 Episode intro: Dave welcomes listeners, complains about blizzardy cold, announces upcoming trip to Orchard on the Brazos.
02:45 – 05:00 Congrats to Tom Bowen (6 years sober), Dave’s gratitude for listener support, unity/love message (“Division is bullshit”).
05:00 – 07:30 Dave brags about taking someone through the 12 steps, celebrates sponsor Brian’s 1 year, talks spiritual “trap door” and meditation benefits.
07:30 – 14:50 Spotify comments roundup (Anders Beck episode feedback):
James DeHart’s conspiracy theory (Grateful Dead/CIA/MKUltra)
Praise for banter, calls for more women guests
Editing complaints (Philip Turner gets socks)
Gypsy’s 91-day sobriety milestone
Mix of love, hate, and suggestions
14:50 – 17:10 Mountainside sponsor read (Dave’s personal connection, full continuum of care).
17:10 – 18:00 Link Diagnostics sponsor (toxicology lab for treatment centers).
18:00 – 22:00 Josh T.’s email & voicemail: Meth boofing Christmas Eve horror story (heart racing, demons, flushing stash, hunting pipe in woods on Christmas Day).
22:00 – 24:10 Orchard on the Brazos sponsor (family-owned, luxurious recovery campus).
24:10 – 31:20 Minnesota Matt’s email: First crack experience (high-school party, East Palo Alto buy, Pink Floyd parking-lot binge, now 7 months sober).
31:20 – 32:00 Recovery Unplugged sponsor (music-based treatment, higher recovery rates).
32:00 – 33:45 Intro to Jed Payne: History with Dopey, first emails, friendship, reference to previous “demonic past” episode.
33:45 – 36:00 Jed apologizes for past relapses during speaker nights/podcasts, explains phenibut/baclofen/gabapentinoids.
36:00 – 40:00 Jed’s early sobriety (2014), becoming a counselor, stepping off antidepressants, Chris’s death as trigger.
40:00 – 45:00 Wife’s weed relapse, group co-signing, CBD entry point, microdosing mushrooms.
45:00 – 50:00 Crossing boundaries with microdosing at work, hypochondria, back on antidepressants.
50:00 – 55:00 Marriage degrading, speed-running antidepressants, flirting with Adderall.
55:00 – 1:00:00 Adderall start, imposter syndrome, phenibut combo, slot-machine gambling begins.
1:00:00 – 1:05:00 Gambling trance, licensing pressure, physical dependence on phenibut.
1:05:00 – 1:10:00 Kratom re-entry, COVID isolation, church breakdown, suicidal ideation.
1:10:00 – 1:15:00 Suicide note & plan, Joby intervention, Bridge to Recovery trauma center.
1:15:00 – 1:20:00 Detox at Bridge, wife’s cheating, friend’s overdose death.
1:20:00 – 1:25:00 Divorce, back on kratom, Suboxone attempt, new outpatient job.
1:25:00 – 1:30:00 Sublocade shot, tianeptine abuse, heroic mushroom trips, podcast decline.
1:30:00 – 1:35:00 Baclofen/Lyrica self-prescribing, honeymoon phase, withdrawal trauma.
1:35:00 – 1:40:00 Loss of faith in sobriety, rationalizing MAT, gray Jedi friends.
1:40:00 – 1:45:00 Mexico trip, oxycodone relapse, Georgia’s pregnancy & miscarriage.
1:45:00 – 1:50:00 Treatment as clinician, humility, no board report.
1:50:00 – 1:55:00 Ketamine clinic (2 years), proposing plan, relapse day after birthday.
1:55:00 – 2:00:00 Precipitated withdrawal horror (3 times), daughter’s birth.
2:00:00 – 2:05:00 Indian pharmacy baclofen, self-prescribing, therapy advice to “shelf it”.
2:05:00 – 2:10:00 Book study retreat honesty, stimulants return (modafinil, THC, Adderall).
2:10:00 – 2:15:00 Pressed meth/Amp paste, massive daily cocktail list.
2:15:00 – 2:20:00 Digital drug dealing, RC benzos, blackouts, online gambling starts.
2:20:00 – 2:25:00 Gambling debt, Georgia confrontation, first treatment attempt.
2:25:00 – 2:30:00 Nurse co-signing drugs, still high in rehab, weekend pass relapse.
2:30:00 – 2:35:00 Sober living hell, 7-OH relapse, kicked out.
2:35:00 – 2:40:00 More Baclofen, doctor refills, massive ketamine/meth dose attempt.
2:40:00 – 2:45:00 Hospital detox, panic attack, jail-like treatment escape.
2:45:00 – 2:50:00 Final therapist breakthrough, surrender, Peter B.’s tough love, 4 months clean.
2:50:00 – 2:55:00 Current life: dad mode, coffee shop job, school, meetings, future helping healers.
2:55:00 – End Dave’s closing love, plugs Church and Other Drugs, SafeSpot hotline, merch/stickers, “toodles for Chris” & outro song.
