So often I like to come back to what I call our default mode, like who we are at our

purest, our root, our foundation, our spirit before the world, before society, before our

conditions, whether us and make us jaded or make us forget who we truly are.

That happens, doesn't it?

Now I've been in such a grind for so long.

We can call those grind survival mode.

We can call this grind dream chasing whatever it may be.

I've been in such a grind for so long that I truly have blinders up, right?

It's always been very hard to simply meet up with me.

You know what I'm saying?

There's a lot of people who have tried to meet up with me over the years and it just simply

didn't happen because my blinders were on, right?

I had something to do.

I'm on a mission.

I'm in survival mode as well.

And this happened for a very long time.

I avoided relationships.

I avoided dating all these type of things.

Of course, here and there, I got into a relationship.

But I was on a mission and I thought my default mode was kind of that.

I was like, you know what?

I'm good.

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