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From the New York Times and WBUR Boston, this is Modern Love.

Stories of Love, loss and redemption.

I'm your host, Megna Chacrabardi.

Breakups have always been bad, but then they got Instagram bad.

That's how Sage Cruiser felt anyway.

Kirsten Wangsness, who stars in the CBS drama Criminal Minds, reads Sage's essay,

cropped out of my own fantasy.

On my computer desktop, I have a folder within a folder that's labeled in a message to myself.

Do not open.

Big surprise. I recently opened it.

It's full of adorable pictures of my ex and me that I had erased from every other location.

One drew me in.

A black and white photo of us from the trip we took to the Oregon coast for his birthday two summers earlier.

Just after we attended my mother's backyard wedding outside my hometown, Portland, Oregon.

My mouse hovered over the image.

Then I double-click to enlarge.

With our elbows in the sand, we smiled as his hand caressed my left forearm,

his dark hair and eyes contrasting with my light features.

My right fist, mostly concealed by my black hoodie sleeve, hid half of my coy white smile.

That picture had been everywhere.

On Facebook, where I'd made it my profile picture, in his office on our living room wall,

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