Hello and welcome to another episode of iWay with Jimmy Lijamel. I hope that this finds you well.

I am fine. I've had to start exercising just to cope with the world. I have been doing it more and

more regularly. Last year I started slowly, slowly walking whilst listening to like Harry Styles

and various other people who make happy music just to sort of lift my mood.

And this year I'm now really getting into it all kinds of stupid exercises. The stupider the better,

the less it feels like exercise the better, the bagier my clothes are the better, the further away I am from a mirror.

None of this leggings and crop top shit in front of a mirror where I have to sit there,

analysing myself with my eating disorder, body dysmorphic brain. I just think that's just

torturous and so infuriating and I hate the way that exercise has been so deeply entrenched in vanity.

And taking away from the people and turned into this sort of special club for the super elite,

super thin, super toned, already athletic people rather than just anyone who wants to deal with

their mental health. So I'm trying to get involved in a way that makes me feel comfortable and

doesn't trigger any of my eating disorder issues of the past. I hope that you're giving that

a shot too because it really does help. Everything is so chaotic right now. I just can't,

I actually just can't, I'm not, and I'm not going to, I'm not going to talk about it right now

right here because you've probably come to this podcast for a bit of a break and that's,

that's fine. So as you know, if you've been following me for a while listening to this podcast

for a while, I'm obsessed. I'm fucking obsessed with mental health because it's been the greatest

journey of my life. And I say journey because I really wanted to say struggle but then I panic

and I didn't say struggle because I was worried that that then lent a negative connotation

to mental health and I didn't want to stigmatise it but also it's a fucking struggle sometimes,

isn't it? It's just shit. It's just a big old bowl of piss. That's really difficult to swim through.

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