Hi and welcome back to the cancelled podcast. I'm shooting up heroin today. Welcome back to the cancelled podcast. Okay.

I'm kidding. Today is the next I'm the most excited for this episode that I've been for any episode. I am too. I'm excited that you chose right now to drink for the first time.

So today is day 75 of 75 hard and I am enthralled. I am just I'm beside myself drink and I was gonna do this whole snow.

I'm not talking to each about how like life has been so good and I feel like I found myself and you know that but now I just want to try.

I think it's been amazing. I think that you have like really really grown into yourself 75 days of growth.

Yeah. We were just sitting here talking and I said dichotomy and you were asking me to explain it to you and when I was she said she said it was the juxtaposition of good and bad right or opposites. Good and bad is kind of wrong.

I think it's just it's more like yin and yang type of thing. Well I told her I don't know what juxtaposition means. But I was saying that directly after this episode I'm gonna go back to just being so stupid.

I feel like I've been so smart and sharp for the past 75 days. I'm eager to see if like if you're gonna be like an extreme drunk or if all this said you're gonna be like really like I don't know why you would be composed but I know that's the thing.

I'm actually really scared to drink for the first time and like bring it back into my life because I felt so great but so bored.

Do you think that you'll carry this like do you think you'll try to be sober more often or like try to drink less?

Absolutely. I think that Bender Wild Tanna has to be put to rest because she's gonna put herself to rest or she doesn't chill.

I think so too. We were talking about it the other day.

We all camera.

We were talking about it the other day and I was saying like well you could just go out and like drink two drinks but I do understand that it doesn't work that way for some people.

I suggested she get on like some sort of antidepressant you're not even depressed but that makes it so you can't drink more than two drinks.

Really? Why?

I don't know. I just get like so ill.

Like you feel sick when you're an antidepressant.

Yeah and like if I drink more than like three drinks I will like be throwing up for three days straight.

Is that true? Is anyone else here on antidepressants?

I can drink so much online.

Natalie walks in here a few minutes ago we go or Tanna goes should we have a glass of wine? Natalie goes I've had three.

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