Like you said, you just start and you just start and it just comes out, yeah.

Yeah.

Because it's from some other place that it comes to you. It's not your own idea. I know I'm not that smart. So I was like, I couldn't have figured that out. So I don't know where that came from. But you, I'm curious, you know, you accomplished a lot too. Can you go back and find places in your life? I mean, if you're at examine, you'd find it, where

you change directions into something that turned into something else.

But there was somebody there who said something to you, who kind of said something that

pushed you, like, in that direction.

They might even remember telling you that.

Yeah.

They said something that was just really stuck in your ear and it sent you off on a path.

You're one of those people. Oh, really? You're talking about it. Yeah. It's, you know, Rebel Without a Crew. It's the quote that I loved, which is don't refer to yourself as an aspiring filmmaker. Right, right. You're a filmmaker. Right. Just that's it. And that's it. Right. You say what you are and then you become that thing. And it's, that sounds like, okay, whatever, it's hugely powerful. Well, because you lay knew yourself as that. And it's like, then is there a moment where you're going to change that, you know, and say now I'm, I've moved from aspiring to, once you establish yourself as that, you're going to remain that, you know. Well, you'll also just conform to that because now that's your, even stronger, that's your identity now. Yeah. Because if your identity is one, that's why I say, people would say, I'm an aspiring filmmaker, you know, to be humble and to be, but I say, you can't, you can't use that word, or you'll always be that. You just called yourself someone who doesn't who was trying to attain.

You'll always be that you just you just called yourself

someone who doesn't who was trying to attain you'll always be trying and i learned that because

when i did mariachi i didn't really type a formal screenplay i kind of did like i did all my movies

where we just kind of write everything that people are going to say and do cards it was. It was just not in a format. And then we went and shot that and then cards, like it'd be out of order or whatever. But when I went to show it to an agent for the first time, before I was signed, the guy who ended up signing me, and I told them what I did, he said, oh, so you're a writer director. And I went, writer.

I guess I wrote what I did, but I didn't think I was a writer. A writer director. I don't know if I'm a writer. I shoot shit to go edit. I'm more of an editor. And I guess I'm a director because I told people what to do. You know, like I wouldn't own it. I wouldn't own it. even though I had written something, like how much more validation do you need?

Like we don't give ourselves permission. because I told people what to do. You know, like I wouldn't own it. I wouldn't own it. Even though I had written something, like how much more validation do you need?

Like we don't give ourselves permission to call ourselves something and it changes your life. Like if you say, if I walked out of there then saying, okay, I'm a writer, what are you going to go do? You're going to go write scripts because now you're a writer. you're not somebody who kind of makes a laundry list.

Right. So it's just a big difference. And you do that to yourself when you give yourself

something lesser than. And you can do it to yourself though in a positive way if you give yourself.

So I tell people, don't give yourself a bad label because then that becomes it.

Listen, yeah, and I would say the same thing about myself too, initially.

I would describe myself as a writer and I'm a director under protest because I direct when it's necessary.

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