The Bird Show.

So I think I'm about ready to face what I have known has been a problem since I was about 18 years old.

And just have decided not to do anything about it.

But now for the very first time in my life, I think that I am ready to admit something you guys probably already know.

Okay. And I'll tell you guys probably already know. Okay.

And I'll tell you how I got here.

So, man, this is complicated.

I don't know how to do it in five minutes, but I'll sure try.

So I went back to my therapist for the first time in, I don't know, six months recently.

And I went back because now that I am living alone and Amanda has moved into her own

place that she bought and she was with me for four months and now I'm in my house predominantly

by myself.

And I've told you guys before this has happened to me that when I am alone I start to

really have a very difficult time with balance like I get reclusive I won't answer phone calls

I know everything that's going to come out of my mouth right now almost sounds like a depression

like I don't really want to work. I'm lazy.

I just don't want to interact.

And I just get into sort of this space where it's very alone, very, very alone.

Like I'm going to meet the alone time with loneliness, which are two totally different things, right?

So I went back into therapy for it.

And she asked me a question that sort of broke my heart when I answered it when I had to say it out loud.

And have you ever had this in therapy also where you're almost embarrassed to admit it but you kind of have to if you

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