And the Hi besties welcome to or welcome back to try not to care if you're new here

hello my name is Ashley I post an episode every single Monday. It's like a little therapy

session for me and you. I have a lot of thoughts. I have a lot of emotions and

it's not good for me to keep them bottled up so why not share them all with you?

So obviously it's the new year and I wanted to go into the new year with a fresh start letting go of anything that does not serve me or in this case anyone that does not serve me and I thought I did exactly that but naturally I go to Boston this past week with my best friend Lauren and a friend

who had ghosted us and if I'm being really honest here just wasn't the best friend

to us decided to send us a lengthy

text on Lauren's birthday I'll add not only explaining why she ghosted us but

almost flipping the script and making it seem as if we did something wrong and normally I would let someone have that like I don't think

it's always necessary to tell your side of the story especially when you

know you did nothing wrong and you know you tried your best to be a good person or

to be a good friend there's times where you're going to be the villain in someone's story and there's nothing you can do about it, but what brought me the wrong way with this situation and what kind of inspired me to want to record today's episode is my emotions and my hurt in

particular was weaponized against me. My reaction to how someone did me wrong was used to

characterize me as a mean girl. And it's not that I care that this person thinks that I'm a mean girl because I know I'm not and I know I'm not because I was a mean girl at one point in my life.

If you've listened to this podcast, you've probably heard me talk about how I was always the nicest girl in middle

school or in high school.

There were times that I was insecure and I projected just a bitch. But because of my actions then and

how my actions affected others, I am very aware of how I don't want to be and how I don't want to treat others.

I make a conscious effort to be nice and be thoughtful and treat others the way that I want to be treated,

especially the people that I love.

But just because I try to do things out of love and be a good person doesn't mean that I'm a robot and I'm never going to get angry.

Being a good person does not equal letting people walk all over you and take advantage of you.

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