I was very suicidal and my dad knew that and he told me that actually if you take all these medicines you're going to tie.

He was very, very ashamed of what I became and he couldn't take it that I went to the police and I gave

a statement against my uncle so they told me I could eat all of them and you're going to die.

They wanted you to kill yourself?

Yeah, so yeah, so all the other time the medicines are like would be locked away.

But they were there in the in the dining room and then he attacked me.

In this episode we appear behind the curtain of the life of ex-Muslim rape,

founder of the Counter Extremism non-profit, the Committee to Protect Muslims and Ex-Muslims.

Disclaimer, this is by no means an attack on Islam, just as the episode with Emily Green,

the Hasidic Jew, was not an attack on Judaism. Both episodes are simply a case of giving

a platform to women who was suppressed, harassed, and threatened by their families and the extreme

sides of their culture. Before I continue about Ray, thanks so much for your continued support on all the messages.

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Ray and I have become online pen pals for a while, now a prominent ex-Muslim speaker on the

perils of extremism. Ray, who moved to the UK from Bangladesh is still

stalked by her family and wider members of Islamist extremist groups who believe in the blasphemy

law. She's also attacked online by both the far left and the far right, so not an

enviable position to be in. Her family abused her throughout childhood, and when she

was 26, her father urged her to drink two bottles of unknown medicine, suggesting if she drink them, she'll die.

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