Hi friends, it's Amber. This episode is a little different than usual. It is me just

sharing from the heart the story of my mother's life and very, very unexpected

death. And there are some really special audio bonuses that I'm so honored to

get to share with you all. And I'm releasing this on my grandmother's 100th

birthday. My mom's mom who is still living six years after losing her beloved

daughter. She's amazing and it feels so good to release this today. On her 100th

birthday, I can't believe it. I can't wait to see her. Thank you for being here

and holding space for this really deep and vulnerable share which really is my

the personal Madison story of my life that is closest to my heart.

I was driving the other night and that song came on. And immediately in that

span of time of the few bars of music I just played. I was sobbing. And that's

because this song got only known as by the Beach Boys. We'll always remind me of

my mother. We played it at her memorial service. And I just remember feeling this

sense of expansion almost like floating hearing it during that and smiling and singing it.

And when I hear it now, it just immediately, it just encapsulates my love for her. Her love

for me and for everyone. In her life and we listen to the Beach Boys a lot as kids in the car.

Mostly alone with mom. We were in the car but when we'd go on trips to visit my grandparents

or elsewhere and it was the four of us. We always listened to the Beach Boys and I had this

realization listening to that song crying a few nights ago that it was like a felt memory

of all of us singing along to that song. I'm sure we all sing along to many Beach Boys songs

back then, back in the 80s and probably into the 90s too. Today the day I'm recording this is

the six-year anniversary of my mother's death in a car accident as she was driving home from work

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