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8: Conversion | When We All Get to Heaven

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🗓️ 26 November 2025

⏱️ 60 minutes

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Summary

In 1995 Rev. Jim Mitulski became HIV positive -- what's known as seroconversion. It was 14 years into the epidemic and people knew what HIV/AIDS was, how you got it, and how you could prevent it. And when Jim got sick, he got very sick. What was it like to become ill so publicly? How would the church and the community respond? And what could Jim possibly preach about on his first Sunday back? “My Soul Doth Magnify” is from Camille Saint-Saens’ Christmas Oratorio, Op. 12, 1858. “The 23rd Psalm (Dedicated to My Mother)” is by Bobby McFerrin.  The biblical story of the death of the prophet Elijah is in Second Kings, chapter 2.    For images and links about this episode visit https://www.heavenpodcast.org/episode-8. When We All Get to Heaven is produced by Eureka Street Productions. It is co-created by Lynne Gerber, Siri Colom, and Ariana Nedelman. Our story editor is Sayre Quevedo. Our sound designer is David Herman. Our managing producer is Krissy Clark. Tim Dillinger is our consulting producer and Betsy Towner Levine is our fact-checker. We had additional story editing help from Sarah Ventre, Arwen Nicks, Allison Behringer, and Krissy Clark. For a complete list of credits, please visit https://www.heavenpodcast.org/credits. This project received generous support from individual donors, the Henry Luce Foundation (www.hluce.org), the E. Rhodes and Leona B. Carpenter Foundation, and California Humanities, a non-profit partner of the National Endowment for the Humanities (www.CalHum.org). Eureka Street Productions has 501c3 status through our fiscal sponsor FJC: A Foundation of Philanthropic Funds. The music for this episode is from the Metropolitan Community Church of San Francisco’s archive. It was performed by MCC-SF’s musicians and members with Bob Crocker and Jack Hoggatt-St.John as music directors. Additional music is by Domestic BGM.  Thanks to Ed Wolf and Frank DePelisi for talking us through the issues around HIV status and sero-sorting in the mid-1990s.  And thanks to Bobby McFerrin and Linda Goldstein for use of “The 23rd Psalm (Dedicated to My Mother).” You can see McFerrin conducting his VOCAbuLarieS singers singing the piece here.  Great thanks, as always, to the members and clergy of the Metropolitan Community Church of San Francisco who made this project possible.   Some links to good groups: National Resource Center on HIV and Aging – resources for older adults living with HIV.  Surviving Voices – an oral history documentary project on how different communities have experienced HIV and AIDS. The most recent focuses on lifelong and long-term HIV survivors.  Let’s Kick Ass – AIDS Survivors Syndrome – support for long-term HIV survivors.  Get more Outward with Slate Plus! Join for weekly bonus episodes of Outward and ad-free listening on all your favorite Slate podcasts. Subscribe from the Outward show page on Apple Podcasts or Spotify, or visit slate.com/outwardplus for access wherever you listen. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Transcript

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0:00.0

I'm Christina Cotarucci, and this is Outward.

0:05.0

Today we bring you episode eight of When We All Get to Heaven from Eureka Street Productions.

0:10.0

By 1995, Pastor Jim Metulski had guided his congregation through endless funerals, moral battles,

0:18.0

and the daily work of holding each other through unimaginable pain.

0:22.5

Then, Jim got sick. His diagnosis changed everything.

0:27.6

Today, through Jim's own reflections and memories of those who cared for him,

0:31.8

we hear how his experience challenged the way the church had been navigating faith,

0:36.0

desire, and responsibility,

0:38.2

forcing the congregation to confront the very judgments they'd spent a decade trying to dismantle.

0:44.1

After the break, when we all get to heaven, conversion.

1:00.5

Thank you. How I became HIV positive.

1:04.2

I could write 10 different stories, and it could all be true.

1:15.7

In 1995, Jim Matalski, pastor of MCC San Francisco, preacher of compassion, minister at countless AIDS funerals, got sick. And when he got sick, he learned he was HIV positive. 14 years into

1:24.0

the epidemic. In a moment when pretty much everyone in San Francisco

1:28.5

knew how a person got it

1:30.3

and how a person might prevent it,

1:33.5

a lot of people had a lot of feelings about Jim getting sick

1:37.0

and getting sick in that moment.

1:39.7

Jim, most of all.

1:41.5

Well, we just kept trying to find meaning, meaning, meaning.

1:44.1

You know, every moment has meaning.

1:46.0

I mean, this was the key to our survival and it was the downfall, too.

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