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shame in medicine, the lost forest.

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So my attorney, every day before court,

and on the first day especially, I had to meet him at his office. And he was like, I'm going to drive you to the courthouse. And it was interesting because he drove me in a pickup truck.

He and the junior attorney sat in the front, and I sat in the back with all the dog blankets

and whatever, and he was like, people are going to watch you get out of the car.

So from the minute we get there, there are optics involved.

So you're getting out of the back of this pickup truck.

And then we're going to go in.

I was, okay.

And, you know, walking in, it's, you know, it's an imposing building.

I'd never really been in a courtroom before.

There's the whole going through the metal detector and marble halls and the sound is echoing

everywhere, and there's the clickety clack of people wearing

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