I want to go out with her

a very famous American actor. I agreed with him that I would never tell anyone who our daughter's real father is.

However, I am currently dealing with a terrible cancer.

I had no idea how deeply her story would touch me or the places that the story might go.

And I have left information in letter for my daughter about her real father.

I'm breaking an agreement. He has assisted me financially to take care of her.

I wondered if facing certain death with nothing left to lose wouldn't I make the same choice.

That's still under the, yeah, that I would never tell. But my secret is that I, yes,

it is a famous actor and I'm telling my daughter and breaking my promise. Thanks.

What follows is a conversation drawn from texts and emails over the last three months.

Milla and I developed an unexpected friendship as she unfolded her deeply personal story

to share with you here today.

This is the secret room. A podcast about the stories no one ever tells. I'm Ben Ham.

I'll admit it was a bit cathartic to leave that message. It's selfish. I just want to tell my story

and get it off my chest. I don't have any other expectation than that. Of course. It's your story

and however you want to tell it, it's the right way. Since I'm dying, I feel like I can ask anything I want.

Why do you want to do this? Well, it's a great human story. It's raw. It's real. And it's a mystery of

sorts because this could happen to anyone. It's governed completely by a set of circumstances

out of your control. It's good.

I really appreciate this, Ben. Everyone around me is so overbearing because they love me,

but I'm drowning. I have to think clearly, protect my identity and my daughters. That is paramount.

Literally no one knows who her father is. And I had a life. I did amazing things.

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