Welcome back, almost 30 podcasts. So happy you're here. Hi, everybody. It's Lansing,

Christa. How are we feeling?

There are places in the world you could be in your hair with us.

Thank you. Truly, we're very grateful. Kristen, I were just talking about that urge to just run away.

Literally and figuratively. I had the whole thing. I was kind of creeped out at how my fantasy

went. I was like, I'm going to fantasize my ideal life. And I was like, I live in the middle of

nowhere. No one knows who I am. I have no friends and family. Like it got like started out normal.

I was like, I live in grass. I am outside. I have. And then it's not dark where it was like no

one, no friends or family, even know where I am. They don't even know I exist in. I have no

thought about me from someone else's mind. It was like, I don't know. Justin has a piece of tape

over his mouth. No, it was like so. It was like so funny because I didn't have it was like, I am

there was no me. It was almost, it was, it was very dark. But I was like, I'm going to try this

on for a little bit about what it would be like to not exist. Yes. I've been feeling lately just

kind of this like, it's like you want change so much. And then you don't want anything to change.

It's like this weird thing where you know change is coming. And you want things to be different.

But it's like, I also want nothing to change. I mean 100. Yeah, that's the whole thing. You're like,

what this needs to be different. And you think about the up level, you know, you're like, oh,

I want this sort of up level. I want this to happen. And then, but it's like in between you don't want.

I've just been thinking about like the, just the hard conversations, whether it's like in my

relationship or just in general that I have to have. And I'm like, oh, my urge to run away is

quite strong. I say I want to have these hard conversations. I say I want to grow. I say I want

to do all these things. And I'm like, I just want to run away. Actually, I want to do it when it's

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