Because my father was murdered and my three brothers were already murdered and every day I thought I didn't know I was going to survive so until that happened to me rape really it was

one of the worst things during the genocide that happened to me and of course I was painful to see my family and all that but when he added it to being assaulted and rape and as a teenager I thought maybe there's no point for me to be alive.

And I don't know if I really need to be alive.

For me, because I was young, losing people, I never thought I was going to be able to

After surviving the genocide being able to function again be happy and

Struggling with the trauma of that.

So during the genocide, I never really hoped to be alive.

I never wanted it to be alive when the genocide

happening after being raped.

So it was after the genocide.

That's when I felt maybe gradually

to be able to love myself again.

But in the genocide, I hope probably I would die like everybody else. Hi there it's Light Watkins bringing you another story behind the story of someone

who is out in the world helping and inspiring people through sharing her

harrowing tale of survival. Her name is Consulae Nishimwe. And Consulae is a Rwandan genocide survivor. I know a lot of us when we think about genocide, we think about it as something that happened a long time ago but that's what make this story so unbelievable because it happened in 1994. I was a junior in college in 1994 so that wasn't that long ago and over the

course of a hundred days nearly 800,000 Rwandans were slaughtered by their fellow Rwandans.

And just to give you a little context here,

there were basically two opposing groups,

the Tutsis and the Hutus.

And what's interesting is they weren't ethnic groups or

tribal groups. The Tutsis and the Hutus were social classes. In other words, if you saw a Tutsi and

a Hutu standing next to one another, you would have no idea who belong to one another you would have no idea who belonged to which group based on how they looked or how they addressed or anything like that.

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