How can you be depressed? How can you be overeating? How can you drink too much when you have everything? What's wrong with you?

In the end I did just reach a breaking point where I thought I can't live with this anymore,

and I tried to write my farewell letter, which was really just to my mom.

You get into this downward spiral, this is the first time you're going

through this as a young person you've never heard about anything like this. You

don't know anyone that's gone through anything like this. So you feel like you

are totally messed up.

And you're constantly finding yourself in these situations where you should be happy and you're just not.

People would look at me and they'd be like, oh you've got everything, you know, you're so so strong and when they saw me having the meltdown they

be like I can't believe it I can't believe that this happened to you. I was all set to do it and

in tears and trying to write this, I scribble this letter but I was just so distraught that that I couldn't write it properly and then the phone rang.

And I told her how low I was feeling and she said just give me a day. I just there's

somebody you need to talk to that I know trust me. When I was in therapy and my therapist prescribed me, you know, she gave me two options.

I can send you to a psychiatrist, we can get you on some antidepressants, or she suggested

that I go out and volunteer.

If you don't share your pain, it will consume you.

If you don't share your pain, it will destroy you.

If you do share your pain, it will set you free.

Hi there it's light Watkins host up at the end of the tunnel. As you know this podcast focuses on the story behind

the story of people who've started movements for social good and all of the obstacles

they had to overcome along the way. One of those obstacles is mental health.

And with this past year's pandemic there's been a surge in mental health cases

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