300: What if your boyfriend lit himself on fire? (300th episode)
This Is Actually Happening
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4.6 • 10.4K Ratings
🗓️ 28 November 2023
⏱️ 56 minutes
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Summary
After falling into a co-dependent relationship, a woman’s boyfriend begins a bewildering decline, but after losing his battle, she awakens to a deeper understanding of grief, death and generational patterns of trauma and silence.
Today’s episode featured Amanda Coggin. If you’d like to reach out, you can email her at spiritualinthebay@gmail.com. Amanda has also compiled a list of resources for mental wellness, adverse childhood experiences, and trauma and resilience.
This episode is an updated interview of episode #1 of the show. That episode is available on the public feed as episode #1 also titled, “What if your boyfriend lit himself on fire?”
Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Jason Blalock
Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual assault of a minor, alcohol and drug abuse, addition, suicide, explicit language
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Transcript
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| 0:00.0 | This is actually happening features real experiences that often include traumatic events. |
| 0:04.1 | Please consult the show notes for specific content warnings on each episode and for more information about support services. Today on this is actually happening. We mark episode number 300. |
| 0:21.0 | As mentioned last week in honor of this, we decided to revisit the first ever |
| 0:25.7 | episode of the show titled What If Your Boyfriend lit himself on fire. In that first |
| 0:31.2 | interview conducted in 2011, podcasting as a technology was only about five years old. |
| 0:37.0 | The show didn't even have a name yet and I had zero experience in audio editing or production. |
| 0:42.0 | But I had an idea. deep, raw first-person accounts from ordinary people who have experienced |
| 0:46.8 | extraordinary life-changing events. |
| 0:49.4 | And so I sat down with a friend of mine, Amanda, and recorded the first interview of the show on a cheap handheld |
| 0:55.0 | microphone outside in Dolores Park in San Francisco. |
| 0:59.1 | At the time I didn't really know what I was doing. |
| 1:01.2 | I didn't really know what I wanted the show to be and I could not have |
| 1:04.0 | fathom what it would become today and how it would change my life. But in many ways this first interview with |
| 1:08.8 | Amanda shaped so much of what the show would become and how it would evolve. |
| 1:12.4 | And if you'd like to listen to her first telling of the much of what the show would become and how it would evolve. |
| 1:13.0 | And if you'd like to listen to her first telling of the story, |
| 1:15.5 | we've made that original episode available on the public feed |
| 1:18.7 | so you can find it as episode one under the same title. |
| 1:21.7 | Today, here we are 12 years later when about a month ago |
| 1:25.6 | Amanda and I sat down together again to tell her full story what led to her |
| 1:30.4 | experience the path she's taken over the last decade, and how this story continues to impact her life. |
| 1:36.8 | So here it is, episode 300. What if your boyfriend lit himself on fire. |
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