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Welcome to Seltzer Squad, the podcast about staying sober in the city with your host, Kate Sander and Jess Valentine.

Hi, Jess.

Hello, Kate.

What are we discussing today?

My identity crisis.

Fuck.

Yeah.

So I'm sure you guys know by now I'm experiencing what Nance has deemed my identity crisis. Okay. Walk me through

that. So from what I know an identity crisis is kind of when all the things you thought you knew are kind of falling away. So for me, just kind of belief systems and kind of my coping mechanisms and I'm trying to do all

these like new things. And it's kind of like when she said, you're going to be mourning your life,

you know, your drinking life because you're starting anew. So I'm at a weird point in my life

where it's not weird. You're like a fucking

phoenix rising from the ashes. This is what you are right now. Oh, fucking it. Yes. I am in my

Phoenix stage of life and sobriety where I've just been kind of questioning all the things of like,

why do I do that? Why do I do the things I do? And just do I even like the

things I like? Or did somebody tell me that I liked that? Or do I think I should like that? Or,

you know, it's like now I'm kind of at the point where I'm like, I don't even know what I like or

who I am. And I think this is probably normal for my age as well, where we kind of go through the like, what am I doing with my life? And, you know, playing by other people's rules for so long in a lot of that society too, right? Like them putting all these rules on us of what we should think, do feel. Yeah. And we're kind of in this movement now of, you know, all women like rising as Phoenix is, right? So yeah, it's kind of a collective thing, but also a me thing. And so, yeah, she's tasked me with like just keeping track of what I'm enjoying, what I get joy out of, which for me is not that many things. It's just hard for me to experience, like, happiness. Do you have

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