So before we get in today's episode, I am so sick and tired of looking at these Roselle

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Welcome to Salser Squad, the podcast about staying sober in the city with your host, Kate Sander and Jess Valentine.

Good grief. Hi, Jess. Hey, Kate. What are we talking about today? Today we're going to talk about grief.

Yeah, this might be a tearjerker. Yeah, get your tissues. Yeah, I'm going to cry. So let's jump right in, go.

Grief. Go.

All right.

The other day, I did a live story on our Instagram, which I don't think I've ever done a live one, really.

But I was going through some feels and I decided to post it because I feel like us and so many sobriety, you know, accounts and stuff,

we obviously focus on the positive. So you don't always see the sad, dark moments in sobriety. So I posted it kind of to be therapeutic, but kind of just to be real. And my dog died. And she was just shy of her

16th birthday. I've had her since she was like one and a half. And I wasn't there when she died.

And I feel really... Did you know she was going to die or not? I mean, I know she's been sick for a long time.

She's been, yeah, she's just old and she has dementia and deaf and blind and all this stuff.

And she started to like lose her mind a little bit. And I took her to the vet last year. And she, the vet was like, I think that you'd be justified to put her down. But part of the problem was that

she couldn't do the stairs at my house. When me and my ex broke up and I moved out into my own place,

I got a duplex or a house, if you will, whatever. And she, we learned, I learned that she can't

really do the stairs. She would fall sometimes down a couple and it was

really heartbreaking. And she really always wanted to be with me. So she would just, she would cry at

the bottom of the stairs and she had like a very obnoxious. She was loud. Like,

she's a hairless Chinese crested for anyone. If you're familiar with their breed, they kind of look, they're kind of chihuahua-ish, but hairless. She's really cute. And so I would like, go down, bring her upstairs, and then she would just piss herself or want to go back downstairs. She could go down the stairs, but towards,

after a little bit, she couldn't do this down either. So that's when I took her to the vet.

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