I'll never forget I'm on stage in Mesquite Nevada and I have this thought I wonder if you could think about it enough if you could make yourself faint and then right when I thought that I got dizzy and I felt myself whiting out for a second and I was like,

I remember everything going white and me just being like, what the f- and I had this fear.

On the external, I'm just killing, I'm doing a show, blah, baa baa baa just having a great set and inside my mind is going what the hell was that like I don't know what I'm even saying on the external I'm much more listening to the inside while some habit is doing its thing and I walk off stage and I said to a couple other comics like I have this bizarre thing that I could make myself faint when I'm on stage and they're like oh yeah you totally could they

keep thinking about it and the underlying belief that I hadn't gotten to for

years later is if I faint while I'm on stage then my career is's over, and then I'm no person.

I don't exist if I don't have comedy.

Hey friend, welcome back to the Light Watkins show I'm Light Watkins and I have

conversations with ordinary folks just like you and me who take an extraordinary

leaps of faith in the direction of their path, their purpose, or what they've identified

as their mission in life.

Today I have another bite-size plot twist episode for you.

A plot twist is a shorter clip from a past episode where the guest shares the story of that pivotal moment in their life trajectory where they found the gateway to their calling and the idea behind sharing these plot twists is to inspire you to lean into those

plot twists whenever they show up in your life, because usually when you get turned around

from what you thought was going to be your path in life

What's actually happening is you're being detoured toward your actual path for this season in your life and sometimes that looks like being betrayed or losing money or in the case of today's guest

transformational comedian Kyle Seis he was performing comedy on the road constantly and living on fast food and he started to have

anxiety on stage and then he started to develop this irrational fear that he was going to faint in the middle of his performance and

then that led him to the hospital because he was having these suicidal ideations and

when the doctors didn't have any good answers for him, Kyle's anxiety then led him to the bookstore

to find books on anxiety, which of course are in the self-help section, and that's where he discovered

a book by Tony Robbins Robbins which became his gateway to doing inner work.

And Kyle is now the New York Times Best Selling author of, I hope I screw this up,

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