Hello lovely humans I'm wildly and you are listening to sex stories a

podcast where we explore eroticism together with our words inviting hot discussions where we can learn more about

our sexy selves lead better laid lives and make the world a lovelier

fucking place. Our guest today is an erotic romance author, host of the

erotica fiction and sexuality podcast, Oh, fuck yeah with Ruin Willow, a

voice-over artist, audiobook narrator, and sex blogger who is into

power play, exhibitionismism and outdoor sex.

Welcome, Ruin Willow.

Thank you so much for having me. I'm super excited to be here.

I'm super excited for you to be here. Can you start off by telling us if you had to reach yourself on a

sexual-shamometer from one being totally shameless to ten being super-duper

full of shame where do you fall right now? Oh right now I am way better than I ever have been in my entire life. Hmm. I'm thinking I'm down at a one or a zero because I have shed a lot of shame baby. Hell yes. Amazing. I actually like to tell this story because I think

it's kind of horrific. When I was in like maybe

elementary school I was so excited I came to my mom I was like pumped I was like mom

when I touch between my legs it feels amazing and she looked at me and she said, you shouldn't be doing that.

Oh, yes.

And you know, that one sentence impacted me, so you know what I did?

I became a grinder.

So I wasn't touching. Very smart of you. Pillows, stuffed animals, you name it. You know, my hand and pillows were great. I love pillows, but they could be too squishy. They had to be a little bit firm, right?

Squishy was bad. They just smush. You know, there's no firmness.

And then going on, nothing really got better. You know, I got the talk and it was more about pregnancy and the medical stuff.

Same with school. The sex ed was medical, it wasn't pleasurable, they didn't even say the word

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