I immediately thought, oh my God, my water has broken, which has never happened to me before.

In the past, my water always broke when I was pushing.

And instead of, you know, water flowing out of me, it was blood.

I had just gushing blood.

When I saw the bleeding, I just knew I said, oh my gosh, I'm having a

placental abruption. I know what this is. Every single night, I would put him in the carrier

and walk around the fields with him and, you know, like talk to him and cry and apologize

for not being there when he was born.

I'm Cynthia Overgard, owner of hypniburthing of Connecticut, childbirth advocate, and postpartum support specialist. And I'm Tresha Ludwig, certified nurse midwife

and international board certified lactation consultant. And this is the Down to Birth Podcast.

Childbirth is something we're made to do, but how do we have our safest and most

satisfying experience in today's medical culture? Let's dispel to have you on Down to Birth show. You first reached out to me and Trisha

last summer. You were a podcast listener in Connecticut, and you wrote us a long emotional email

about your third birth, your third boy. Your first two births were lovely, and then you had a

placental abruption for your third birth when you were planning this final birth to be like

the choir's singing and the be all and all of

your birth experiences. So you're here to tell that story. And a year ago, you were willing to tell

it and you asked to tell it. But I said, why don't you give it a long while until you finish

processing? So why don't you introduce yourself? And before you get into your story, talk about,

just comment on what that processing might have done for you and whether you think it was a good

idea to wait before telling your story. Sure. Thank you so much for having me. I have been such a

fan of the show and it's just, it really actually helped me so much in preparing for

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