You're Now your wife is Andrea right?

How did she take that news that you're heading back over?

Oh, she was pissed.

She was mad. She was mad. She was, but my wife is one of those, come back wearing your shield or on your shield type girls.

And, um... You think it'd probably helped because her dad was military she was she

understood more than somebody who hasn't been in that environment yeah and she

held down the house, she raised the girls, and I felt guilty as, I felt really guilty about the point,

this, especially this particular trip, because I needed to be home.

Yeah, I needed a break. That's, we refer to the, to our family members like that as the

unsung heroes and it's the unsung heroes.

And it's the same in law enforcement.

Our families are expected to deal with life

while we're out doing what we do.

Yeah.

Never know it if you're coming back. I mean holy cow you've already been shot twice.

Yeah. And then that trip I was support the National Guard team as a dog handler and my heart wasn't in it my head wasn't in the game and so yeah that was a

2009 trip was different so I get home from that 2009 trip and again this is a quick turnaround. So I was gone for another

eight months. I get home and sure enough the big kickoff into Marsha and this is southern Afghanistan.

And I thought for sure I was going to get a break to that I asked

for it but it didn't work out that way we lost we lost a dog handler and and so I needed to deploy so I was only home for a few months again and I was back in Afghanistan with my dog but this time my my team sergeant gave me time like he gave me all the time I needed to kind of chill out and so yeah I took advantage of I took advantage of every day I still

trained I still met my responsibilities I still every I still did everything I had to do but but he stepped off the gas pedal on me.

And then, yeah, I got this, so I need that much needed break gave me an opportunity to get back out there at my own on my own terms.

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