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It's a couple days after the election.

It's the Friday before you listen to this episode when it drops.

And I had given myself a couple days off from work and from the

podcast to just mourn and grieve and feel everything that I've been feeling. Just allow myself to be

angry and upset and feel everything. And I thought I gave myself enough time. But as I'm sitting down

here, I've cried like three different times.

Luckily, the last recording of me like literally sobbing for whatever reason, it didn't pick up on the

microphone. So I had to re-record this. So I'm a lot more composed now. But this week has just been

really, really hard for me. And it was difficult for me to pinpoint why this

feeling that I've been feeling, like the anger that I've been feeling, the disgust I've been feeling

the heartbreak I've been feeling is so different than anything I felt in the past. You know,

I've, I've been depressed and I've gone through heartbreak and I've gone through hard times, but this just

felt like I genuinely feel like I got the wind knocked out of me. And I'm not going to get too

into that today. It just feels wrong. And it's such a loss for women and for other marginalized

communities and for our education system and our democracy

and just everything.

Such a huge loss.

And I know that there's some people that aren't going to agree with me and they're not

going to like hearing me say that.

You know, I've already lost so many followers on social media for speaking my mind because

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