Radio Tepi-A from PRX.

Dear diary.

6th grade, February 14th.

1991.

I am really depressed.

How could she break up with me?

Mom, you can't read this.

I feel like all my friends that I grew up with got to be normal teenage girls where they

had their choice of boys to like and to date and to have interested in them.

And for me, I was just looking for anyone who might be gay.

So I don't even know what were my standards then.

Pretty low, just are you gay?

I think I was just looking for clues if I got to know a girl and she didn't talk about boys

or didn't have any of the usual celebrity crushes.

Oh, well, she likes new kids on the block, but she doesn't like any particular new kid on the block.

So maybe she's gay.

From PRX and Radio Topia, this is the mortified podcast I'm Neil.

Today, the tale of a teenage lesbian who having grown up before the age of the internet felt lost at sea.

But despite her loneliness, she was determined to one day find another girl just like her.

I had read that one out of ten teenagers was gay or bisexual, so I just thought statistically there's got to be, you know,

30 of us in each grade.

15 had to be girls.

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