Mormon Stories is a production of the Open Stories Foundation and relies solely upon the support

of people like you, its listeners. To help keep the podcast alive or to become a member

of the community, please become a monthly subscriber by visiting MormonStories.org and clicking

on the Donate button on the right side of the page under Support. All contributions to

Mormon Stories are completely tax deductible in the United States and go towards producing

the podcast and building communities and programs of support for Mormons like you. Thanks

for your support.

Does that bring us to the point where you started to have some cracks develop in your faith

or are there other other... Almost.

Maybe the last thing I went back to school, I got another degree so I could see it and

work at a better thing here so that was an additional thing. Going back to school, what was

maybe the beginning of this crack in my faith because I started to think again and I started

to study things again and use my brain more. Also at the same time, maybe just sort of

on the side, my mom started to get dementia and she lived with us. That was also another

really difficult stress factors. There were like a lot of different stress factors and I felt

just like more and more that church wasn't giving me all that much. I often felt bored in

church. I felt like it was always the same. I felt like I've heard everything. There

was like nothing new being taught. I felt exhausted after church on Sundays and with everything

else that there was to do, it just felt like one more thing that needed to be done. Plus,

I felt like it was really killing Bill. No pun intended there. But it was just like he was

working so hard and then church thing and I think I started to resent. I would say do you have

to go to this priesthood meeting? Is it necessary to go to this? And then he felt like I wasn't supporting him.

...