During that time I just was just like someone unplugged me from the wall and I just fell

into a dark pit I just had no energy to do anything and ended up in a really huge time of suicidal depression

where I just felt like all the work I'd done on myself and all the acts of courage I'd taken and all the decisions I'd done

that was honoring my heart was and I still hadn't got I felt like I hadn't got anywhere I was like

okay well I'm still here I'm still in pain emotional well I'm still here, I'm still in pain, emotional pain, I'm still financially not strong,

I'm still not knowing where I belong, and yeah, and so it got really bad.

Hey there and welcome back to the Light Watkins show,

formerly known as at the end of the tunnel.

If this is your first time listening, you're in for a real treat because this week we're going to

go back and revisit my conversation with Miss Bronny Ware.

Some of you may remember Brony Ware is the former palliative nurse who wrote the blog post in 2009 called

The Top Five Regrets of the Dying. And little did you know it would go viral and get viewed

over 8 million times. It would turn into a best-selling book and it helped to change the way

that many of us now think about death.

Brawny had a very interesting journey.

She grew up in rural Australia where she became the lone vegetarian

in a meat-eating family,

and she tried the regular job thing, many of us do but she didn't find it fulfilling

so she quit her job and she started no matting around and that's how she found her way into

palliative care because she needed a place to stay and the one woman who gave her room and board ended up transitioning and that's what palliative care means.

It means you look after dying patients in the last three to 12 weeks of their life

before their transition. As it turned out, Bronny was a natural at helping people

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