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Mormon Stories Podcast

028: My Story Part 2--Losing My Religion, and Finding it Again

Mormon Stories Podcast

Dr. John Dehlin

Religion & Spirituality

4.55.7K Ratings

🗓️ 19 October 2007

⏱️ 45 minutes

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Summary

At least once each week a listener will ask me (John Dehlin) about my testimony in the LDS Church. Liberals or ex-Mormons call me an apologist. Conservatives accuse me of being a"wolf in sheep's clothing." So, to dispel the speculation--and in response to lots and lots of requests, I reluctantly share my story within the Mormon context. In this episode, I discuss my marriage, the importance of the church to my family, and the experiences I had as a seminary teacher in Seattle that led to the dissolution of my testimony in the LDS Church (as I knew it). I also discuss how the writings of Eugene England, Lowell Bennion, T. Edgar Lyon, Leonard Arrington, and others (in Sunstone and Dialogue) helped me to reconstruct my faith.

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0:00.0

So when did you meet your wife?

0:23.9

I met Margie, my senior year at BYU.

0:26.8

I was dating Alyssa Hatch, a few other girls.

0:32.5

I knew I had to get married by the time I graduated, so I had about four or five girls.

0:36.4

I was dating in parallel.

0:39.1

And Margie, she ran cross country for BYU.

0:44.2

But what I loved the most about her, I met her in family meeting in our ward, but what

0:48.3

I loved the most about her was her room.

0:51.0

Her room was beautifully decorated.

0:54.0

She had curtains and a beautiful bed spread and candles and it was lit nicely, but most

1:01.1

importantly I looked at her bookshelf and she had books on philosophy and history and

1:06.2

thinking books.

1:07.2

And she was a philosophy minor and an English lit major, all the classics.

1:11.7

And I just fell in love with Margie and her room and her.

1:17.9

And so we got engaged.

1:21.0

And as I graduated from BYU in 1993 we got married in the DC temple and that was the

1:27.5

start of our marriage.

1:29.5

Great.

1:31.5

How would you characterize her position towards the church?

1:36.0

That's really interesting now because that's another reason I'm super grateful.

1:39.8

I knew that I was going to be struggling with things later on in my life.

1:43.4

I just had that instinct.

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